I went through so much shit in my life, and I came out so much better than they could’ve ever thought. My problem has been my humility, which allowed breed for insecurity. In reality, I’m better than everyone I know. I do believe that there are better people out there, but the chances of finding them are low. If I can find only one person who is close to me by chance throughout all my life, how in gods name could I find any other?

There is no hope for it. Every person in academia I’ve met is subpar, and not as clear as me in thought. They’re deconstructive individuals, often people who revel in.

ego is good, actually

It’s spurred on by hypomania, very likely, but it’s a good thing, not a bad one.

I find myself realizing how pathetic it is being judged by others. Why should I give a fuck about what people online think? It’s a moment of clarity for me, realizing that I’m scared for the judgement of anons. They’re like monkeys to me.

Why should I care about what society in general thinks? I’m deeply critical of culture and society, why the fuck am I worried if someone inundated and completely enthralled by it? People whose moralities are built by what the person beside them says.

Why care? They show no true personal judgement. I know what I know and what I don’t know. I know what I’m capable of and incapable of, so long as I keep to critical self-analysis, I can ensure I’ll end up proving it. But I have faith.

my god complex is correct

I’ve found myself proven time and time again to keep faith in my own judgement. I know when things are right and when things are wrong. I see it. I noticed the impact of ego in argumentation a while ago, and ensure that I remain observant outside of academic literature.

Mediation

I assume the idea that a god complex isn’t healthy comes from a wise place. Megalomania never gets people far, cults of personality and despots make it clear. Putting yourself too much on a pedestal

But I think that type of delusion is about wanting others to see you. You still care. My delusion sees people for what they are. Shallow, instinctual, semi-conscious beings who live by impulse rather than judgement.

Immorality and Reckoning

Having such a superiority complex is dangerous, morally. But I can’t help it. I see it in dating, where I’m frustrated by being slighted by people who don’t deserve to slight me. I’m better than them, and the fact that they could have such an effect on me bothers me to no end. t