Introduction

Weight

I gained and lost a significant amount of weight last year. It was almost entirely due to Abilify, an antipsychotic. No matter how little I ate, I gained weight. The drug is the devil, and I warn anyone if you take antipsychotics and you feel your appetite shift, get off it the moment you take it, it’s not worth the consequence. There are better drugs that don’t have that as a side effect. Why my psychiatrist didn’t just give me that shit first, I don’t know.

I went from 235lbs to 178lbs since the start of 2022 to now (2022.07.14). The highest I’ve ever been was 240lbs, so I lost 60lbs total, and 55 lbs in 7 months. It’s a personal achievement.

The Reality of Loose Skin

With weight gain, you may think all it takes is just weight loss to return to normal, but they don’t tell you about the loose skin and the stretch marks, which can look worse than being fat because due to its abnormality. If you’re looking to lose weight for body image issues, they’ll still need to be addressed, because it won’t end with weight loss.

There are ways to deal with loose skin, like surgery, which due to the prevalence of it can give good results. However, it’s always a coin toss, and surgery is going to be incredibly painful and intrusive to you, on top of expensive.

Dermarolling shows positive effects without being that intrusive. RF therapy shows slight positive effects. Collagen supplementation shows slight positive effects, but it requires a lot of intake and still largely determinant by the other factors (age, how long you were fat, genetics). For stretch marks, pumice stones work well.

Fasting shows no evidence of preventing loose skin and careful/safe weight loss shows no evidence in preventing loose skin. Grieve what you must to accept that, unless you dedicate your life to finding the drug that cures loose skin which then I suggest you do it because I want in on that.

It sounds depressing, but that’s the reality. What’s presented in media, the perfect bodies, is not reality. 56% of young adults in america from 18 to 25 are overweight or obese.¹ Likewise, lighting and editing tend to make bodies look more smooth and perfect than they are. There’s bias towards an ideated perfect form of body, perpetuated by culture.

Make yourself feel better by finding people in a similar situation than you, as that will give you relatedness and have you more secure about your flaws.

Either way, mortal flaws and imperfection are more beautiful than ideals can ever be.

If you’re alone losing weight, and want emotional, motivational and/or moral support, you can email me or add me on discord and I’d be pleased to lend it.

Health Score

The health score is a measurement of quantitative health. I’m way too tired right now to create a thorough quantitative measurement of my health, so there’s this for now. These are the variables:

• (E)ndurance, Cardiovascular Health, measured by resting heart rate for now
• (A)ctivity Level, PAL
• (B)MI for now, body fat % for later

Health score:

B * E / A

Lower the better.

Ideal: 600

Average: 1000

Driver’s license says I’m 173cm so, I’m 5’8”. So I’m taller than lucille ball at 171cm, which is all I care about.

Physical activity level:

Caloric Requirement = Physical Activity Level x Basal Metabolic Rate

PAL = CR / BMR

This is tough, because I have no idea how to measure that.

1781 calories is my BMR rn. 1.4 is the minimum for a living adult, so that would be 2493.4 calories.

I’ll just calculate it using any activity above that. The way to do that is to use the MET stuff. I can find a bunch of calculators online to find it.

But now I have to determine it since it’s daily, I’ll have to convert it to a daily average.

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Journal

2022-07-14

I scored a higher score, but I lost 2 lbs, so I’m realizing resting heart rate is a bit of a tricky deal. If I used the last resting heart rate, which should be 86, then I’ll get 1720.

I think the best way to lower the score is to start increasing my physical activity level from 1.4. I’m doing push-ups, which isn’t much for resistance training, but they’re by far my favourite before I set things up in my basement for proper body weight exercises. I used to be stronger when I was fatter, ironically, because I used to do a lot of body weight exercises then, thus working with more weight.

Anyways, this is the resistance regimen I wanna do.

I can do 3 sets of 10 (proper) push-ups, with me usually struggling with the last one or two but making it. I’ll want to stick with that.

Lunges, 3x10 reps each leg.

For cardio, I have an elliptical machine, but it’s such a bother to use, I’d rather just to burpees.

I realized my driver’s license says I’m 173cm. So I think I’ll go with that, 173 is 5’8”. I’ll retroactively change my measurements to that then.

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RECORD

Date	Weight(lbs)	BMI	RHR	Health Score v1
2022.07.05	181.4	27.5	86	1689
2022.07.14	178.4	27.1	88	1703

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